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i guess i'm a woman now​.​.​.

by TAMAGOTCHI MASSACRE

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Can't go outside Can't love myself Can't even seem to love somebody else Dissolve in total disconnection It's been two years Your life's plateaued Somewhere along the way your progress slowed Stall out at a busy intersection If I check off Enough boxes maybe I'll finally win Paralyzed by the thought of losing Self abusing I don't know if it'll in end When I look into her eyes I see his dying wish come true But through all of this pink I still can't seem to stave off all the blue
2.
Just wait! For the next catastrophe Suffer social atrophy And no I haven't eaten but it It doesn't matter It doesn't matter anyway There's no way out of this Obligation to exist I guess that I'll just throw a fit It doesn't matter It doesn't matter anyway Yum! It permeates my mouth The guilt and shame and doubt I guess that I'm a woman now It doesn't matter It doesn't matter anyway My dad critiques my weight While I can't touch my plate I'll fake a stomachache It doesn't matter It doesn't matter I spent years wishing I was cis Or at least that I look like it Maybe starving's a price to pay Got my wish but it doesn't matter anyway I skipped my meals today And you said I look great (Oh my god you look great) I feel like shit! But hey It doesn't matter It doesn't matter anyway He prays to god I disappear Cause I embody all his fears We haven't spoken in years but It doesn't matter It doesn't matter anyway credits
3.
I hate punk bands I hate sports I hate going to Backspace on Saturday nights I hate peace I hate war I hate ripping off John Lennon I hate myself I hate you I hate ones I hate twos I hate love I hate hate I hate waiting for you to text me back babe Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way This is stupid I'm so dumb Kick my feet in the air when I'm talkin about you and Bright pink bubblegum Am I even enough of a woman? Am I your type? I don't know. Die of frost bite, stuck in the snow Blue umbrella chance of rain I hate waiting for you to text me back babe Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way Sending cloud emojis your way
4.
Tell me I'm pretty Wait never mind, don't You're pouring ammonia down my beautiful throat Still I can't resist I'm drinking you in Its melting my insides and leaving the skin Tell me I'm pretty Give it a shot Right through the temple and then leave me to rot And I'll hope and I'll pray To leave a heavenly stain Devout at the altar Im in love with the pain I'm just a ghost Of flesh and bone Ritual sacrifice me Aphrodite's throne Rip out my throat Virgin blood flows My face possesses every Moment that I know Tell me I'm pretty Slam my face in a wall Rip out my entrails and admire them all And then feast on my guts No it's never enough I'm just a ghost Of flesh and bone Ritual sacrifice me Aphrodite's throne Rip out my throat Virgin blood flows My face possesses every Moment that I know
5.
I'm so angry with myself For letting you hate me I know it's fucked but I feel like a failure Raise your voice but don't speak Stare down at your feet Men's shoe size 12 I'll never be cinderella Fluorescent lights and bathroom tiles Crying alone in grocery aisles Now that my bubble's popped I'm fucking lost I think I'm gonna be sick I'm just a damsel in dismay But no one ever wants to save Princess of plastic dolls She's six foot tall And probably has a dick If I just Do things well enough I'll win Pick it up and try again Shattered pieces of the fantasy That I could just exist Do you think that I could be Noticed at the grocery store if I wear the gayest boots in my collection If not, then what's it gonna take Just want to hear someone say "I like your style" a split second connection I look down and mumble "thanks" Staring at the peeling paint I'll misspeak and be Flustered and leave Don't want to cause a problem Am I a fool for wanting more? Is the best that I can hope for To be still alone While they go home to Somebody who loves them I'm so soft and delicate My skin's like porcelain Any stranger at Whole Foods can smash me into pieces I feel like an idiot For thinking I could piss They called me pretty and I just fucking believed it Now I'm a full agoraphobe I'll fill the woman's role at home I'll be like Marceline Vampire queen I'll never see the sun Fuck I mean what's a girl to do? Every time I play I lose Feel like I lost a life Reset and died I'm back to level one. If I just Do things well enough I'll win Pick it up and try again Shattered pieces of the fantasy That I could just exist
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7.
November I was seventeen You paint my nails an ugly green Got dumped in a stupid outfit Feels dumb when you think about it So what? We never even kissed And I still get angry over it Two boys drift apart together Melting my heart in the southern weather Are you scared to love me? Sky looks so dark above me Do you want to fuck me? Skin deep into self discovery I needed more from you back then Stuck being your best boy friend You wax poetic bout how much you need her I'm so pathetic i just wanna be her Wrong time wrong place it's so cliche I'm trans and you don't know you're gay! Fag and a dyke in a movie theatre Distorted quiet from a busted speaker Are you scared to love me? Sky looks so dark above me Do you want to fuck me? Skin deep into self discovery I'm trying to find a way to say this Don't take this the wrong way Look on the bright side I've got a lot on my mind But that's okay I'm Doing just fine I'm taking my time like Ladadidada Ladadidada Dadadada-da Are you scared to love me? Sky looks so dark above me Do you want to fuck me? Skin deep into self discovery
8.
When I think of you the butterflies start moshing in my guts Ricocheting off my stomach lining now they're limping Nauseating suffocating makes me wanna throw up Overloaded, screaming butterflies shut up! When I talk to you my tongue's a ribbon tryna make words nice Monologuing to the mirror till my commas flow right Changing jackets, different outfits, but it's never enough Every day and night, you got me fucked up You make my heart sore Could say let's care less but it just hurts more It's you I cry for After everything I guess I'm still yours You make my heart soar You make my heart sore You make my heart soar You make my heart sore I hate everything you've ever said or ever even done Your friends hate you too so I know that I'm not the only one I guess I could cry but why would I waste water over you LA's in a drought and I'm heat sick you make me want to I love everything you've ever said or ever even done Load my love into the chamber blow your brains out with my gun Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye Cause you're bulletproof it's awful it just makes me want to cry
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I went out to get a brand new coat of polish After that i went and walked around the mall Teenage girl in a world that won't see her She tries hard but it won't matter after all It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough Drown out dysphoria with estrogen and glitter If I sparkle loud enough then maybe I won't hear When they call me "he" or "sir" whatever I'm not bitter Maybe the hormones will have more effect this year It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough "Give it time" they say "I promise it gets better" Is it me or is the world getting worse? Castrate me slowly and burn all my baggy sweaters At this rate I think I'll end up in a hearse At this point it's like fuck why even bother? I left my shell to find a slightly bigger one I'll cut my hair and change my pronouns to whatever Playing a losing game was never any fun It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough
10.
It'll be alright It'll be okay You can start to slowly like yourself again Dissolve into your own reflection It'll be alright It's gonna be okay Your outward appearance doesn't matter anyway If you don't live to see the day And I love you And I see you staring back at me now Got so used to the feeling of your breath down my neck Even when you weren't around I can't help but crack a smile I don't care if I look plain dumb At the thought of you slowly disappearing Underneath my tongue Don't you cry again Killing time Future's coming for me Let the past just pass away (pass away) It's alright I just know it will be okay (no, it's okay) Anyway Blood pumped full of estradiol (full of estradiol) Who cares if you're six feet tall (if you're six feet tall) Stick another needle in the vein Drinking bright pink ethanol Love the hurt cause after all Womanhood is pain Don't you cry again Don't you cry again

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released January 6, 2023

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